My Soul: Being Truthful

One thing I consider is one of my greatest attributes yet one that always puts me in question is that; I don't lie!

I hate liars ... I have an inner lie detector that sometimes deviates and suspects truthfulness :)... I vowed a long time ago I can't even recall when, not to lie... that lying is for those who fear consequences... and being unusually self sufficient I hardly think about things that could scare me.

Humans mostly fear death, poverty and sometimes loneliness. knowing for sure I can't stretch my life a second, bring wealth upon myself or make somebody love me for who I am and not for how I look, makes fear in fact unworthy of attention.

So when I'm asked questions I answer them fully and directly when I have excuses, I say them and when I don't have excuses I don't make them up I apologize; and it feels great! It lifts a burden that liars experience, the look of shame that creeps against their will.

Saying the truth gives me the strength that I need to be me! The only drawback, and one that I also don't fear, is how truthfulness has become synonymous with stupidity and naivety. In modern terms you can't be smart and straight forward you have to be sophisticated and a clever liar!

People like me enjoy that inner discipline but find it really hard to bond with the masses who prejudge them, but eventually they find their likes and rejoice in the fact that they are not extinct :)

My Soul: Venting

So much happened in the world that the mere complains of daily life become a shame to talk about.

Countries and people carry their stigma of being in the third or bottom lanes must not exercise intelligence or creativity because their rulers said so or because history or scripture once blamed a sorry generation for something bad.

Egyptians, my people, took a leap of faith and made it through 18 days of saying no to injustice, innocent lives were lost.

A supposedly fair election is to take place and all calls for a civilian liberal government that sees to the diverse needs of our community are screamed.

With the massive Tsunami in Japan, nature rules dictatorially too. It does physical damage equal to that of the miserable souls who wish for a chance at peace and equality and can't find it.

If I could make it through every day knowing I have given something of value to the world rather than conforming to seeds of hate, I would sense my worth that which I was denied but found in the little gifts that my global friends appreciate; my little voice and my art.

My Soul: The Power of Fasting!

Fasting is an ancient training course for humans to take charge of their mortal bodies and its total urges and empower their immortal souls.


It is quite often that you yield to the demands of the body at the expense of bettering your spiritual side.


By naming any physical need and putting it aside the soul takes command. It’s quite rewarding when fasting is over and you know you uttered no lies,offended no one, got a grip over your anger, and restored your inner peace.


Finally when it’s over, you’ll have to make another tough choice should I remain in command or have that body pull me down?


That’s completely determined by who you really are!

My Philosophy!

My Soul: Happy Eid. Peace & Blessings

Being away from home during the holidays and specially during Eid in Egypt is quite disappointing. I usually start my first day of Eid very early to get ready to pack the bundles of lamb to give to the poor and needy and put aside a thigh to cook for a family gathering. It's such a great feeling of fulfilment when I drive up and down the block for those who missed knocking at our door for their rightful share of Eid blessings. I miss that... a lot... I miss their grateful prayers of thanks that charge me with humbleness for I have done nothing but being chosen to do so. Happy Eid and Blessings to Every living being whether seen or unseen.

My Soul: Change

It's really outstanding how sometimes our perspectives and goals in life might take a complete turn. a few months ago I was extremely stressed doing what I have been doing for ages since graduation back in 1993, which is teaching literature and elementary ESL courses for both teens and adults. I was working on my PhD proposal in order to pursue an academic career at private universities in Cairo/Egypt. One day, I chatted with a student of mine who is a movie critic about publishing some personal articles that I wrote out of fun and love for writing critiques on life and film. She offered me the chance to show my work to her editor in chief at a small local film magazine in Arabic. He happened to be looking for someone who masters Arabic/English to fill in for the western film critiques section. My articles got published in three consecutive editions and there was two more getting ready for print while I was moving with my family to Dubai and leaving everything behind. I'm writing about this because now I only want to write professionally and I have no clue where to start. Ironically enough, I started discovering the pleasure of blogging and it's my soul's satisfaction at the moment. Soon, I should try and find a way to accomplish my new goals. Now, I must settle for the practice until the real thing.

My Soul: Finding a comfort zone

As much as I like people and enjoy gatherings, I have learned to enjoy my quality time with myself. I'm always talking inside my head to the point of driving myself crazy sometimes! Analyzing and observing is usually stressful, but it gets truly rewarding when I infer something valid, worthy and comprehensible. I enjoy creating art forms, keep busy blogging and writing, can't wait to get me a pack of decent chalk pastels to resume drawing. I'm taking a forced break from work since I came to Dubai with no prospects of driving soon. I'm in tech-savvy- house wive-mom mode:) now! which is a great time out from the buzzing world. Live streaming with God is a major comfort zone, thanking Him for the little things such as watching a white sailboat passing or some colorful fireworks touching the roofs of the night , little affectionate poodles that rub themselves at my feet out of no where, or dancing water fountains. Finding a comfort zone is essential to keep one whole. -L.

My Soul: Blogging Frenzy!

How did my blogging frenzy begin? I have found great pleasure in all the aspects that constructed Twilight, saga/movie, ever since I've read and watched it (God only knows how many times!) early this year. The movie and it's gorgeous cast simply sucked the remains of any brain space I had before they completely took control. Twilight's mysterious effect on it's readers, young and old takes really a lot of strength to resist or simply ignore.
It brought me to a special friend that I've met through Spunk Ransom on facebook and we couldn't shut up about it. Though we were oceans apart, we came up with the idea to share a blog and called it Robstenation & all things twilight. Unfortunately, I couldn't keep up and we had conflicting approaches so she took over and is doing an absolutely wonderful effort to make it a top twilight site. If it weren't for that experience, I wouldn't have had a clue about running my own blog. I guess, the Lord works in mysterious ways! So this is a special thank you to my friend Shaui from Manila, we dream about watching Breaking Dawn together:) may God fulfill our wish.

My Soul: Dealing with my anger

I hate those days when I have to deal with my anger...I don't get angry you won't see me angry, actually you're going to "like me when I'm angry" , to the outside world I'm a very calm and serene person. I was once told "you are cold!" by co-worker! ...that was nice to know, because I hate to live with the burden of guilt...hurting others is not my talent... what I'm really good at is hiding my anger and when I mean hiding I mean people sometimes realize that something is wrong with me but nothing else...on the inside I get to feel what Bella Swan calls "a big hole punched in my chest"... severe headaches and a strong desire to just not deal with the so called humans until I'm bored with loneliness. What I really need to deal with is the magical transformation of what should be anger to overwhelming sadness. Trying to figure out how.
-L.

My Soul

My Soul is a regular post about any stimulus that would enrich the values within and lead us to inner peace.

-L.